Thursday, February 9, 2012

I Miss You!

Hello Lovelies, I have recently started art journaling to help myself through some really wicked times.  Today is the 17th anniversary of my Mothers death and there isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t miss her something crazy!  So today I put my feelings on paper and wanted to share some of it with you!

My goal is not to make you sad but for you to know that I have not crawled under a rock and hidden from the world!  Although sometimes I feel like it!  This is my way of coping and I hope that you understand I need to share some things.  Not everything but some things. 

So on to my page…I don’t usually share the journaling part of any of my pages as I think journaling is a private thing.  I needed to share this today because I know there are others out there who feel the same.  My cousin who recently lost her baby, a friend who recently lost her father, another friend who lost her father years ago, anyone who has lost, our hurts may not be the same but we all hurt and we all need to know that we are not alone!  That there is someone who will listen and not judge and who will let you yell and cry and rant just because you need to for no reason at all other than you saw their favorite bird that day or whatever your reason!
Now really on to the page…


***Brenda*** said...


I miss my dad so much right now. I am so mad at him for leaving us. Like he really had a choice. :-) Cancer is such a cruel disease.

I can't cry like a need or want to. I just want to scream sometimes. In fact I did yell at dad yesterday.

I have come to the conclusion, anyone that says as time goes by, it will get better, didn't truly love the ones they have lost. It doesn't get better.

I can't believe it's been 17 years since Ms. Linda passed. To me it doesn't seem like it, but to you guys it's been an eternity.

Now that I have sat here and cried at work, I will quit typing now. Stay strong my friend/neighbor.

Love ya,


Nicole Maki said...

I'm sorry for your loss and your grief, Kelli.

It's good that you are art journalling to get through rough times. Art is all that holds me together somedays.

Thinking of you today.

Alison said...

Oh Kelli, what a beautiful and fitting way to honor your Momma. I love the colors...beautiful, yet somber. I love your angel, your style of drawing. The meshy bits here and there. You know I am right here with you. My Dad is gone almost 11 years now. And you know how I think about him every single day. Just remember, that we never get over it, we just get through it. I love you with all my heart. And so does your Momma.

DK Spins said...

Kelli, what a beautiful journal page about your Mom. My Momma also passed away on February 9th, but 9 years ago. It sucks that the pain of that loss never goes away. My heart goes out to you sweetie. Big hugs and thank you so much for sharing this part of you. Dianne